My Random Life

What a stressful day! First day of DRe7 and it did not disappoint!! Just a view of what’s in store for the next 3 weeks!  I just feel like I’m so stressed out and not dealing with this very well. It shouldn’t be so hard. How is everyone else dealing with this? I feel this stress will eventually impact me, and my loved ones - especially the two boys that are my life. And I understand that’s not good.  I played for half hour with A today - puzzles. And it felt really good! It really felt good cuz I stopped my kitchen work and actually sat down to play with him. Then I got up to do something and bam - my nemesis - pee pee accident 🤦‍♀️ And I lost it! I showed my frustration on the restroom door and A lost it. He was wailing and acting just like I did! Gosh! Then it occurred to me - that’s what I’m teaching him! That’s what he sees me do and that’s what he will learn. Good lord! I calmed myself down. Didn’t scream or seem angry. I have him a shower and fed him. But I just continu...

Can you imagine! 174 days since we’ve been home! This is just plain ridiculous. What unprecedented times man! Getting close to 180 days - 6 freaking months!  What happened to the last 174 days, how did they pass, what could have been different, could this have been averted, is this the only way...oh gosh! I guess this is the way of life now-that’s prolly why I haven’t even come to my blog for the last few weeks and I’ve lost the interest to blog everyday. Cuz to be honest, what am I going say anything different?! Same old routine - work, workout, Ari, eat, sleep and that’s it!  I’ve done a few things differently in the last few months though - started intermittent fasting (14-16 hour fast everyday), started waking up in the morning to finish workouts (yes I am!) and taking more stress at work (cuz I don’t have any better way to handle it!). We got back yday from a gorgeous weekend in Destin (I’ll write a separate post about it) and we had a blast!! Just that I’m super tired an...

Crossed 100 days!! And missed the 100 day mark 🤦‍♀️

What a day! What a fucking day! Where do I start and how do I end? Had a heavy heavy heart the whole day mourning the death of my dear friend A’s mom. Aunty has been hospitalized for the last few months (within two weeks of covid) fir a brain stroke, in the icu, got back home semi recovered but went back into ICU after another stroke. She was in coma for a few weeks and passed away Saturday evening. Uncle, who was with her through the last few months was diagnosed positive with covid and was in isolation when she passed away. His brother, who eventually made it to India was in self quarantine when this happened. A and his sister don’t have an OCI care and they’re struggling to get a stupid visa to go home.  What the fuck is this dude? How fucking unfair is this situation? How can god, who does everything for a reason, do something like this? What is the greater purpose behind something atrocious like this happening with the sweetest family I’ve known for over a decade? If this kind...

Worked out after more than two weeks! Feels so good!!! 

89 days and counting!!! Going strong huh!!! 💪  Hearing rumors about another lockdown....really! Another one? Whew!! Either I’m losing interest or I just don’t care!!

Can’t believe I missed blogging for almost two weeks!!! My excuse - work of course!!! Went back to work 3 days last week. Have yo go for 4 days next week. Dress rehearsal 6 in progress - leading it so gotta be there! I’ve been drowning with work so doing whatever I can to survive and stay afloat!! Part of that is to just rest whenever I can - hence no blogging.  Btw - thinking about covid - are things slowly getting back to normal? Hmmmm maybe?! For us...yeah! Met friends, S’s 40th bday, GNO....whew! Fingers crossed! 

Third day being at home, long weekend of course. No work on a weekday, noticeably lesser stress! Sine I had  a nice break from work, I had more patience and more energy to play around with him. I feel really bad that I don’t always have this ‘whole’ feeling with him cuz of my stupid monotonous routine. But it feels really good whenever I do have those moments. Goes without saying - work does impact the time I spend with him. Something I have to really think about. Made me really feel I’m capable to have and handle another one emotionally. Got through All my chores - ticked em off YO! Felt really accomplished! Noodles for him, pasta for us nice nice! Decided not to do dishes and ruin my day. Planning to sleep early and fix my routine a lil bit!  Overall a nice weekend!!! Thank you god! 

Sunday of the Memorial Day weekend!! Very different from previous ones, staying home in quarantine. Had a relaxed day. Made idli for dinner which sorta turned out like bidli 😛 Then I made custard, ate it with mangoes. That’s it, didn’t cook any lunch or dinner. Washed my hair CG style, put up the blackboard on my pantry door and watched a movie which felt really long!!  It was Eva’s bday so I got her a cake and a small gift. Went to PetSmart to pick it up. She really enjoyed it.  Good day so far!!! 

It’s been two months since we’ve been working from home! Two months!!! Good lord! Feels like a huge milestone! Bent social distancing norms and met the scotch n cigar group today 😐 went to Lewisville lake marina park. Man, it felt soooo good to socialize after such a long long time! I realized how much i missed socializing! AND left my hair curly 🥰 big big step for me! I didn’t get adverse reactions like I expected! I guess it’s all in my head! I have a perception of how people perceive me - it’s all in my fucking head!!! Was kinda relieving to realize that today!! 

Here it is! My curly hair!!!! My friend A came over and helped me with my hair. Showed me how to apply products and style it. Man such a difference! I think I like it. I have to be patient and keep this going!!! Made sorakaya curry for lunch and had A help me with tres leches. Interesting method. Turned out great!  Made aloo cutlet, pav Bhaji for dinner. Ate A LOT of food. Whew. In food coma! 

Had a crappy start to my day. Heard the news about working from home till end of August. Done - bummer, lost it, gone! Shared my anxiety with friends who pitched in to help via texts. But I just shut off myself to handle it myself. Refused to workout, instead did nothing. Didn’t have any other way to let my frustration out so obviously showed it on  A - shame on me again. I know it’s my guilt that I’m not giving him my 💯 attention. And work is pummeling me. So I’m trying to survive and stay sane -  not very well though!!!  Put him to bed early, ate dinner while watching a movie. Feeling much more relaxed now. Planning to sleep early so I can sit down with A for sometime before getting consumed by work! Atleast try to feed him some breakfast.  Weird day man!  Just when I thought things were ok - bam! A lizard on my bedroom ceiling 🤯 in case you didn’t know, it’s my arch nemesis! Got K to kill it. Was a lil one 😕 still! Too scary to have it in the house.  ...

Had another looong day at work. Followed by a pretty good workout! Attempted my pre-covid routine to drink a smoothie in the morning and eat dinner early - feeling good already 😊 Let’s see if these two changes help with my annoying bloating 😐 Work front - PowerPoint diagrams are sooo hard to manipulate 😡 ughhhhhh

Happy Mother’s Day!! Another celebratory day bites the corona dust 😛 Was like a regular Sunday - cooked, cleaned, napped, visited amma etc. My expectations for surprises on special occasions are down to zero, so no disappointment! Glad I was able to get time to fold loads and loads of laundry 🧺  woohhooo!! Best part of my day was enjoying a wonderful snuggle with A 😊 I just love those moments with him. pure bliss! My best gift ever🤞 No jinxing god please!!!

Gosh! It was a loooong day but a good one! Can’t believe I’m saying this but I did really have a very good day! And feeling productive too!  Had a wonderful day outside. Went to white rock lake, parked and walked on the trail for an hour. Got food from canes (amazing!!), parked in a park’s parking lot and ate in the trunk - aka tailgating! Was soooo different from what we got into the routine of doing everyday that it was really cool! The weather was absolutely fabulous too so a cherry on top!!  Another victory was making idli today for breakfast, not bidli!! Idli is the doom of my life! And that’s k’s most favorite dish in the world so even more pressure to nail it 😕 I’ve tried idli many times before but it never felt like I really nailed it. So attempted again today. He calls my idli ‘bidli’ cuz it’s not quite idli. Today he said it’s the best bidli I ever made 😱 so that’s great progress!! both my boys ate all of it and asked for more more 🥰 so made a second batch. That’s...

And happy birthday Nanna! Can’t believe it’s the 6th of May already!! 50 days of working from home and quarantine! Whew!  Finally loosened up and met Anna vaallu for dinner today. K joined too - met my parents after more than two months!! Celebrated his birthday. Our cousin and Anna’s best buddy HK also came by. Feeling guilty that our quarantine rules were broken a lil bit - but will be careful in the upcoming weeks. Hope things go ok fingers crossed 🤞 

Woah long long day at work today! The workout was brutal again today. Was pretty bad yesterday too. So I’m really really in pain today 😫

...to binge watch. Locke and Key on Netflix. Pretty interesting show. It sorta reminds me of Harry Potter and Hogwarts. I like it so far! But there’s only one season on Netflix though 😐 Had a nice day overall. I was super energetic today, maybe cuz of the long weekend. Just did not want to work out but pushed myself to do it. I was seating like a dog doing push ups even though I was kneeling 😬 A slipped his nap. Played a lot with us. Knock on wood good day! 

Debuted on TikTok today!!! Wasn’t planning on it but it happened! Was collaborating with cousins to make a TikTok video throwing lipstick and saree (sort of a challenge) and was busy with that almost all week! Went back and forth on what saree I would wear, what saree I would throw etc. and finally finalized on Friday. Explained the concept to Kanth and he was on board! Shot 2 parts yesterday and three parts today. But instead of waiting for my cousins to finish the video, I downloaded TikTok and compiled mine myself! It was an interesting day. Have a weird feeling of accomplishment 😂 But this is taking me back into social media - which I’ve been away from for over 4 years!! I still remember how distracted I would be and how much of time I spent wallowing in that shit. Either trying to get attention, out doing what others were doing, posting every damn update, following what others were up to...whew! Wasn’t the best time of my life. Hope I don’t go down the same path again!  This ...

Was S’s baby shower today so we had a lil drive by party. Pre drive by party was in Ikea parking lot 😊 with M’s family. Kids played around and we drank in the parking lot. Fun part was then the cold drove by. I almost thought they would boot us outta there! Was such a different and sorta fun Saturday!  I shot two small videos for our cousins group tik tok video. That was a lotta fun too! The boys helped me quite a bit 😊 Can’t wait to shoot another two tomorrow!