My Random Life

What I did differently: Doused my hair in oil overnight Used very lil shampoo to wash hair. Washed only once, left most of the oil on my scalp.  Used cold water to rinse off conditioner  Used lot of curling cream Mediocre amount of gel Left my hair wrapped in a t shirt for more than 45mins (and it still didn’t dry!)  Here are the results - going in the right direction I think!!  I messed with my hair a bit today. In an attempt to ‘refresh’ my curls, I mixed water and leave in conditioner in a sort of spray bottle and tried to re curl a few sections. They got more frizzy 🤦‍♀️ 🙄  Working with water and gel like A recommended last week had better results. Anyhow...I know my culprit sections so I’ll work on them tomorrow and hopefully have better luck. If not, worse case scenario when I have to go to work - use a curling iron on the front three sections. Just cuz I can’t take those three sections, I don’t want to abandon my curly hair - yet!  Day 1: Day 2: no...

Third day being at home, long weekend of course. No work on a weekday, noticeably lesser stress! Sine I had  a nice break from work, I had more patience and more energy to play around with him. I feel really bad that I don’t always have this ‘whole’ feeling with him cuz of my stupid monotonous routine. But it feels really good whenever I do have those moments. Goes without saying - work does impact the time I spend with him. Something I have to really think about. Made me really feel I’m capable to have and handle another one emotionally. Got through All my chores - ticked em off YO! Felt really accomplished! Noodles for him, pasta for us nice nice! Decided not to do dishes and ruin my day. Planning to sleep early and fix my routine a lil bit!  Overall a nice weekend!!! Thank you god! 

Sunday of the Memorial Day weekend!! Very different from previous ones, staying home in quarantine. Had a relaxed day. Made idli for dinner which sorta turned out like bidli 😛 Then I made custard, ate it with mangoes. That’s it, didn’t cook any lunch or dinner. Washed my hair CG style, put up the blackboard on my pantry door and watched a movie which felt really long!!  It was Eva’s bday so I got her a cake and a small gift. Went to PetSmart to pick it up. She really enjoyed it.  Good day so far!!! 

Haven’t blogged all week cuz Ive been working almost every week night except tonight. It’s just the beginning, more is yet to come! 3-4 more weeks of insane stress and frustration is waiting right ahead of me. Coupled with that, I will go back into the office. I have mixed feelings. I feel it should be safe enough, cuz, you know I trust everything blindly. But what if I feel uncomfortable after going to the office? Talked to my manager and he’s ok with me resuming remote work if need be. Anyway will find out soon next week! I’m excited to get out, nervous to get out and have a terrible feeling that I will miss being around A all day. In fact I will miss being around K all day too! Over the last 2 months I’ve developed a lot more emotional dependency on him! We’ve never spent so much time together - ever - since we’ve known each other!  Anyway, I’ve been tripping over my fuse for the last few day’s and K has been extremely supportive. I know he’s being very patient with me, so I got...

It’s been two months since we’ve been working from home! Two months!!! Good lord! Feels like a huge milestone! Bent social distancing norms and met the scotch n cigar group today 😐 went to Lewisville lake marina park. Man, it felt soooo good to socialize after such a long long time! I realized how much i missed socializing! AND left my hair curly 🥰 big big step for me! I didn’t get adverse reactions like I expected! I guess it’s all in my head! I have a perception of how people perceive me - it’s all in my fucking head!!! Was kinda relieving to realize that today!! 

Ok! Had a breakthrough yesterday with styling my curly hair yesterday.  My friend A came over and helped me last night. Showed me how to apply products and style it. Man such a difference! I think I like it. I have to be patient and keep this going!!!  First things first: find your curl type! It’s important to understand what your curl type is to understand how your hair behaves and what could work for you. The process I explained below would remain the same but products will change based on your hair type.  https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.allure.com/gallery/curl-hair-type-guide/amp Here’s what I did yesterday: 1. Washed my hair with my regular shampoo conditioner. Didn’t shampoo my hair twice like I normally do. That’s to help leave natural oils locked in.  2. Used my fingers to comb through my hair in the shower and remove tangles. Flipped my hair over with my head down. Also scrunched hair up to form more curls.  3. As soon as I came out of the shower I coul...

Here it is! My curly hair!!!! My friend A came over and helped me with my hair. Showed me how to apply products and style it. Man such a difference! I think I like it. I have to be patient and keep this going!!! Made sorakaya curry for lunch and had A help me with tres leches. Interesting method. Turned out great!  Made aloo cutlet, pav Bhaji for dinner. Ate A LOT of food. Whew. In food coma! 

Had a crappy start to my day. Heard the news about working from home till end of August. Done - bummer, lost it, gone! Shared my anxiety with friends who pitched in to help via texts. But I just shut off myself to handle it myself. Refused to workout, instead did nothing. Didn’t have any other way to let my frustration out so obviously showed it on  A - shame on me again. I know it’s my guilt that I’m not giving him my 💯 attention. And work is pummeling me. So I’m trying to survive and stay sane -  not very well though!!!  Put him to bed early, ate dinner while watching a movie. Feeling much more relaxed now. Planning to sleep early so I can sit down with A for sometime before getting consumed by work! Atleast try to feed him some breakfast.  Weird day man!  Just when I thought things were ok - bam! A lizard on my bedroom ceiling 🤯 in case you didn’t know, it’s my arch nemesis! Got K to kill it. Was a lil one 😕 still! Too scary to have it in the house.  ...

Had another looong day at work. Followed by a pretty good workout! Attempted my pre-covid routine to drink a smoothie in the morning and eat dinner early - feeling good already 😊 Let’s see if these two changes help with my annoying bloating 😐 Work front - PowerPoint diagrams are sooo hard to manipulate 😡 ughhhhhh

Happy Mother’s Day!! Another celebratory day bites the corona dust 😛 Was like a regular Sunday - cooked, cleaned, napped, visited amma etc. My expectations for surprises on special occasions are down to zero, so no disappointment! Glad I was able to get time to fold loads and loads of laundry 🧺  woohhooo!! Best part of my day was enjoying a wonderful snuggle with A 😊 I just love those moments with him. pure bliss! My best gift ever🤞 No jinxing god please!!!

Gosh! It was a loooong day but a good one! Can’t believe I’m saying this but I did really have a very good day! And feeling productive too!  Had a wonderful day outside. Went to white rock lake, parked and walked on the trail for an hour. Got food from canes (amazing!!), parked in a park’s parking lot and ate in the trunk - aka tailgating! Was soooo different from what we got into the routine of doing everyday that it was really cool! The weather was absolutely fabulous too so a cherry on top!!  Another victory was making idli today for breakfast, not bidli!! Idli is the doom of my life! And that’s k’s most favorite dish in the world so even more pressure to nail it 😕 I’ve tried idli many times before but it never felt like I really nailed it. So attempted again today. He calls my idli ‘bidli’ cuz it’s not quite idli. Today he said it’s the best bidli I ever made 😱 so that’s great progress!! both my boys ate all of it and asked for more more 🥰 so made a second batch. That’s...

And happy birthday Nanna! Can’t believe it’s the 6th of May already!! 50 days of working from home and quarantine! Whew!  Finally loosened up and met Anna vaallu for dinner today. K joined too - met my parents after more than two months!! Celebrated his birthday. Our cousin and Anna’s best buddy HK also came by. Feeling guilty that our quarantine rules were broken a lil bit - but will be careful in the upcoming weeks. Hope things go ok fingers crossed 🤞 

Woah long long day at work today! The workout was brutal again today. Was pretty bad yesterday too. So I’m really really in pain today 😫

...to binge watch. Locke and Key on Netflix. Pretty interesting show. It sorta reminds me of Harry Potter and Hogwarts. I like it so far! But there’s only one season on Netflix though 😐 Had a nice day overall. I was super energetic today, maybe cuz of the long weekend. Just did not want to work out but pushed myself to do it. I was seating like a dog doing push ups even though I was kneeling 😬 A slipped his nap. Played a lot with us. Knock on wood good day! 

Debuted on TikTok today!!! Wasn’t planning on it but it happened! Was collaborating with cousins to make a TikTok video throwing lipstick and saree (sort of a challenge) and was busy with that almost all week! Went back and forth on what saree I would wear, what saree I would throw etc. and finally finalized on Friday. Explained the concept to Kanth and he was on board! Shot 2 parts yesterday and three parts today. But instead of waiting for my cousins to finish the video, I downloaded TikTok and compiled mine myself! It was an interesting day. Have a weird feeling of accomplishment 😂 But this is taking me back into social media - which I’ve been away from for over 4 years!! I still remember how distracted I would be and how much of time I spent wallowing in that shit. Either trying to get attention, out doing what others were doing, posting every damn update, following what others were up to...whew! Wasn’t the best time of my life. Hope I don’t go down the same path again!  This ...

Was S’s baby shower today so we had a lil drive by party. Pre drive by party was in Ikea parking lot 😊 with M’s family. Kids played around and we drank in the parking lot. Fun part was then the cold drove by. I almost thought they would boot us outta there! Was such a different and sorta fun Saturday!  I shot two small videos for our cousins group tik tok video. That was a lotta fun too! The boys helped me quite a bit 😊 Can’t wait to shoot another two tomorrow! 

Two nights of binge watching - finished four more shots season 2! Oohhhhhh found a hottie to crush on! Samir Kochhar - played shashank Bose! Wooohoooo! At first I didn’t really liked him but his role kinda grew on me and I really enjoyed him 😋 That apart - i really liked this season more than season 1. The connection among characters was stronger, story writing was better, showed these women as being more powerful than in season 1. Overall loved it! The last episode got back some of my rough memories but I wept and carried on! Can’t believe that happened a few times today! Such shows steal my heart cuz I connect with them. Nice show! Signing off!