My Random Life

Season 2 is on prime! Started watching it today. Yet another mind numbing show 😏 Had a weird day today. I had a presentation for a VP, a 10 minute update on something I spearheaded a few weeks ago, which btw was a success, and I got chewed at the end. It was frustrating and my infields reaction to it was tears in my eyes. But I stayed strong and moved on. I know that It was not directed at me but it still stung. I’ll be over it!  Had hanuman Chalaalisa chanting today for A’s mom. Prayed for her health. I was hoping to lead it but eventually ended up following my mom. I feel I’m always in her shadows and it sometimes feels bad. I got feedback that the chanting session could’ve been better. Yet another disappointment for today. So I think I’m done for now. I’ll WSU’s up tomorrow morning and keep going on cuz that’s what I do!! 

....for my hair 😛 I washed my hair and followed the Curly Girl method instructions more carefully. And I think I’m getting the hang of this - really slowly! Well, I took 2-3 years to figure out my straight hair regime, it's unreasonable to expect curly hair regime taking any less! Figuring out that the key is having hydrated hair, and applying gel at the right time when hair is still damp but not soaking wet. I’ll plan this more carefully the next time. It’s about time I start expiring products, change shampoo conditioner etc.  Overall a good day today. Poori pitla for breakfast, beetroot curry and rasam for lunch, didn’t catch a nap, folded laundry, watched HIT - so far so good!  Here’s a pic of my hair btw - just to track as a journal 

Cleaned up the back yard With the Help of the guys! Washed down outdoor furniture, dusted off pillows, rearranged sofas in the backyard....looks gorgeous now! Had a nice evening sitting outside chatting with hukka drinks and great good. Enjoyable evening.  Will start working on ari potty training from tomorrow! Feeling guilty he regressed because of us. And we are punishing him instead of being patient. Things gotta change! 

Veena’s bday today. Another covid lockdown bday bites the dust without a proper party 😕 had a video chat with girls though! Felt good.  After an intense workout and seating mike a dog, I finally gave in to my temptation to ‘do my hair’. I used a flat iron on my hair after more than a month! I only ironed the front sections a bit and I felt human again! Ironed and Wore a cotton kurti, had a few glasses of wine and enjoyed my evening/night.  Work was ughh but who cares now?! 😏

Oh my god! We are done watching Riverdale! Finally!! It feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my brain!! It was such a lame show but for some reason it kept meengaged by throwing tidbits here and there! It was like a breadcrumb trail and I totally fell for it. And binge watched and binge watched and binge watched till my head hurt with the stupidity! Oh well, it’s finally over, so I hope I can sleep in peace now 😊 Good night Riverdale, and sweet dreams! 

Today it feels like my head is in a box. It feels heavy and claustrophobic. I think the monotony of this situation is getting to me. Waking up at the same time everyday at 7-7.15, working through the day, working out in the evening, dealing with Ari, feeding him, making him sleep, watching Riverdale, writing the blog. GOD the same things over and over and over again. It feels like there’s no end to this. I just want some quiet time, just not doing or seeing or processing anything! K has an idea - instead of leaving A in Anna’s house, why not I go work from there? Hmmmm interesting idea. I might just take him up on his offer! I even canceled my day off on Friday because I’m not able to get much done at work either. Was a weird day at work too, I couldn’t focus much at work this morning. I was ok in the afternoon but just jumping from meeting to meeting to meeting, context switching over and over and over again is so damn exhausting!! I hope tomorrow is a better day. I really hope it is....

Back to back to back to back meetings today! Half hour, one hour, half hour, one hour - soooo much of context switching! Was just really exhausting. Tomorrow looks more of the same. And I do have things to get done but barely any time to do them!  Had a good workout today too. K and I decided to split up and work out separately. He took A for a walk and I fed him dinner while K worked out. Hopefully we are being more conscious about giving him attention and spending more 1:1 time with him this way. But I do miss the adrenaline rush of working out with K. He really motivates me to push harder and harder. I got through it because it wasn’t too brutal. If it was like yday I would’ve just given up 😐 Another day and Another night bite the dust. When is this going to end?!!!!